Tears and Fire

     Again, another poem I found in the notes on my iPod. This one I wrote on July 28th 2013. Not sure what I was doing that day either or what I was feeling, but hey, here it is;

Tears and Fire

 

Tears stream down my face

All I ever wanted was love

All I wanted was you to be happy and to love yourself as I love you.

Why do I feel like this? So broken and desolate

 

Lost without reason or meaning

All I can think of is you and your well being.

Is this right?

Where do I land in this, where is my importance?

 

Am I merely a pebble to be kicked aside?

I feel like nothing, and yet I long to be something.

The tears continue pouring out, where do I go from here?

Forced to my knees, I fear this is the end

 

Can I give up now?

Is the pain finished hurting me?

How could  you betray me?

After all I did for you....

 

Please please love yourself as I love you.

Hypocrisy as it may be, for I find it hard to love myself

but loving you is what I know.

 

I'm falling out of space and time

my life and worth are but a needle's point above a burning flame

Wanting to melt away, but unable to.

 

Toss me into the fire

watch me light and burn

perhaps the pain will soothe the hurt I feel inside

I can't keep living without you here with me

 

I love you

I need you

Please, love you

and love me too

 

 

-Mitchell Linford Clark

 

     I apologize that so many of my poems and writings seem so depressing and dark, I do try to write positive ones. It's just that for me, writing poetry is a healthy way for me to release negative emotions. I promise that what I write isn't necessarily what I believe or feel, rather it's just a manifestation of my feelings in the moment, not the long-run.

Love you all